Puan is my status now.

i am married...

now i am a 'PUAN' aka 'Mrs'...
how i feel?
hmm...

Aku dan Dia..

Nak tau tak cerita kami?

Sebenarnya aku pernah jatuh cinta pd dia dulu...4 tahun lepas.
Tp atas kesilapan aku dan juga dia, kami berpisah..
Sepanjang perpisahan itu dia merana...kerana dia terlalu sayang pd ku.
Dan aku pula hilang arah tuju hidup...namun aku seorg Aries tetap kuatkan hati terus mengharungi setiap liku hidup.
Setiap hari waktu bangun dr tidur , aku akan sentiasa beritahu diri bahawa aku sedang lakukan perkara yg btol. Yg lepas perlu dilupakan..dan itu lah rutin ku selama 4tahun ini.

Namun jodoh itu mungkin tertulis milik kami.

Tahun 2008 , tuhan bukakan hati aku untuk mula merindui dia.
Setiap hari jiwa tidak kuat lagi untuk cuba melupakan kenangan lalu.
Lantas aku sendiri 'mencari' dia...masuk email, dan akhirnya aku terjumpa Jun dalam frenster.
Tanpa berfikir pjg aku terus tnya Jun tentang dia..berbagai helah cuba aku lakukan utk dapatkan cara utk ctc dia. Bodohnya aku ketika itu,tak terfikir lgsg siapa Jun dengan dia tu.
Akhirnya , aku jumpa lelaki yg aku cari2...dan kerana aku juga, sekeping hati wanita merana..maaf.

Kali pertama aku jumpa dia...hati berbunga.
Tak dapat aku gambarkan perasaan aku..tp aku ttp katakan pd hati dia sekadar teman lama.
Waktu tangan dia menyentuh tangan ku, segala dinding tembok batu yg selama ini aku bina berderai begitu saje.
Hati terlalu rindu..waktu tu mcm nk peluk dia erat..tp,sabar lagi...
Dari pertemuan itu, baru aku tau betapa aku pernah menyeksa hatinya..maaf.
Dan air mata selalu tumpah bila mendengar cerita selepas dia kehilangan aku..
Rupanya dia tidak sekuat yg aku sangkakan..mgkin kerana cinta yg pernah aku beri pdnya,menjadi racun yg menghakis keegoaan dia.

Akhirnya aku kembali menyerahkan hati ku pd nya..
Sebenarnya hati ku mmg milik dia sejak dulu..
Dan aku terus jatuh cinta pdnya buat kali kedua..

"if u luv sumOne, give them space n let them FLY...if she is yours, she will FLY rite back to u.."

****Yes,dear..i am all yours..****

aku nk kawen dah

Ada lagi brape hari ek?
Ntah..lost in count...less than 20days i guess..

3rd October 2009

mak andam = checked
hantaran = checked (extra 2 dulang - belom)
pelamin = checked
goodie bag = checked
baju nikah = checked
p.a system = belom
tudung nikah = belom
bilik pengantin = sedang diusahakan

OK...talking about bilik pengantin...
Aku dah cat kaler pink..tp side kepala katil belom.still thinking samada nk letak kaler ribena tu atau sama je pink...
Perabot - aku pakai yg sedia ada jek.
Kelambu pengantin - mama dah tempah jahit
Cadar - kena beli lain ar.skali terbeli king size.mana muat...hadooii laa..

Hmmphh..sebenarnya aku sgt stress dengan preparation kenduri aku ni. Terasa mcm semua benda aku setle sendirik. Seb baik adam ade...dia je yg nolong banyak..
Mama sebok dengan cucu baru dia. Budak tu pon asik melalak je. Tp aku tak marah dia,tp aku hangin giler dengan mak bapak dia yg bangang cam shial tu..hisy,geram aku.
Khemah, bahan masak sume aku rasa tak setle lagik..tp aku malas nk tnya mama.lantak lah..kang tanya lebih kang nmpak aku push sgt..
Ape nk jd,jadi je lah...yg penting aku buat mana part aku jek...stress siut..
Budget pon mcm dah lari giler ni...
Ntah lah..yg penting aku yakin nk buat benda baik ni mesti Allah permudahkan...aku usaha,tawakal & redha jek..

Seriously...i am excited but at the same time frust and fed up dengan preparation kawen aku ni..



tak tringin pon nk amik gambar preparation aku dan upload dalam blog ni.
i dont feel like doing it..

sadness

Sedeh lah...
Dah masuk 5 mggu tak berjumpa dengan Encik Kippei.
Rindu giler...
Tp terpaksa la juga lalui sebab takde option lain. Kemaman ke KL tu terlalu jauh..
aku rasa aku terpaksa lah get use of it. Sebab pas kawin pon kena jd weeknd couple je..
Hmm...what if i am pregnant?
Alone?
Hmmpphh...scary , doh..

Sedeh nyee..

hair and color

http://www.lorilondon.com/

more idea for my hair accessory..

http://www.marthastewartweddings.com/article/perfect-palettes-pink-and-gold?rsc=taxonomylist-b_inspiration_pink&lnc=15cf1aadd4b1d110VgnVCM1000003d370a0aRCRD

http://blog.weddingwire.com/index.php/weddings/color-palette-pink-and-gold/

These are ideas for 'gold-pink' theme colour..

Dreamy Decorations for “A Midsummer Night’s Dream” Wedding Party

Just imagine hosting a wedding party set in an enchanted woodland scene—flowers peering out amidst the foliage, delicate butterflies fluttering about, and the fading twilight bathing the entire scene in a magical glow.

This is the setting you can create to bring to life Shakespeare’s well-loved romantic comedy A Midsummer Night’s Dream. Centered around a royal wedding celebration, this famed play is set in the wooded realm of Fairyland under the light of the summer moon. What a delight to bring together dreamy decor elements to stage this world of enchantment!

Ready to bring your own creative twist to this enchanting theme? Try these five decorating ideas:

1. Select a muted color palette – The color palette, for instance, can revolve around the soft, feminine hues of pink, peach, yellow, and lavender set against a dreamy ivory background, with mint green as accent. Glittering accents can then be applied to create that magical feel.

2. Bring in sparkle and glitter - Sparkle and glitter mean fairies must be around, so be liberal with touches of dazzle! From ceiling swags made of delicate tulle or chiffon, add a sprinkling of clear and silver sequins to catch the light. Highlight fabric butterfly wings with shimmering patterns; and bring the luster of pearls and the glint of mirrors to the tabletop with elegant candle coasters. Finally, have lights, lights everywhere—from the soft glow of white candles, to the twinkle of tealights in tabletop holders and hanging votives.

3. Include fairy woodland details - Have floral elements everywhere—in petite flowerpot favors, in petal-covered tealight “lamps,” in loose rose petals scattered on the tabletops. And for final fairyworld touches, have gossamer-winged butterflies and dragonflies seemingly perched at random amidst the setting and tiny lights turning the entire scene magical.

4. Infuse a touch of whimsy - Bring the reception to a fittingly magical close with a unique “favor tree” that transforms into a “wedding wish tree.” At the start of the reception, use the tree to display your guest favors, such as lovely sachets hand-painted in the event’s color palette. Then as your guests depart, each taking a favor with them, have them use the cards provided alongside the tree to write special wishes or messages for you, and attach these on the tree branches in place of the favors. It’s definitely a more personal and fun alternative to the traditional guest book!

5. Cast a storybook ending – As a lovely link between this reception and the wedding ceremony that preceded it, display a storybook-shaped ring pillow symbolizing the vows you had just exchanged. The pillow alludes to the literary inspiration for your wedding theme, while you may incorporate passages or quotes from A Midsummer Night’s Dream in your wedding vows. Or you may have written personalized poems to one another, in keeping with the romantic sentiment of the play. To get more information on the story, you may want to check out BBC’s coverage of What happens in A Midsummer Night’s Dream?

Other great ways to create this enchanted setting:

- The right venue - Recreating fairyland may be simple if you have access to an outdoor garden already blessed with trees, shrubs, and flowering plants. If it includes a little pond or fountain, you’re truly in luck! All you need to do is add the fairytale elements. But if an outdoor venue isn’t available, even an indoor hall or hotel ballroom can be magically transformed into a dreamlike woodland.

- Creative table names - For an added whimsical touch, have each table named after a fairyland character from the play, such as the fairy king Oberon, the fairy queen Titania, and the human lovers Lysander, Hermia, Helena, and Demetrius.

- Framed quotes - Place romantic passages or quotations from the play in special frames, and display them on the reception tables. For some ideas, you can go to About.com’s page on quotations from Shakespeare.

- Fairyland references in the entourage - In the wedding ceremony itself, the fairyland theme of the reception may already be hinted at with the ringbearer wearing a special outfit inspired by the play. While the flowergirls, too, may have dainty fairy wings adorning their gowns, and tiny magic wands with glittering accents in place of traditional flower baskets.

-------------------------------------------------------------------

I've been thinking about GOLD and PINK.
Aku dah pilih gold sebagai kaler tema kawen aku. Tapi bila mama suh tukar kaler kepada pink,aku dah mula glabah...
Baju,cadar,bunga pahar dah ready kaler gold.
Tp mama ade point bila dia ckp my wedding day akan jadi boring sebab baju songket belah Tganu kaler krim..so mcm sedondon jek tema kaler nya di dua2 belah..
Hmphh..pening gak kepala aku memilih kaler. Perkara pokok utama pon tak dapat decide lagi. Hari besar nya dah nk sampai...lagi 2 bulan lebih jek...75 hari je lagi...

How to Make a Wedding Veil

1. Step 1
   
   Decide what length of veil you want. For a shoulder-length veil, you will need 24 inches of fabric. Waist length will require about 32 inches. For fingertip length, you will need 40 inches. Floor length will vary by your height. You can also have a longer, cathedral-length veil that goes onto the ground.
   
   
2. Step 2

   Purchase tulle--the fabric you will use to make your veil. Go to the fabric store, and you will find a variety of different types of tulle. Match the color as close as possible to your wedding dress. Pick tulle that is slightly soft and not stiff and scratchy. Tulle is very inexpensive and normally can be found for a couple dollars per yard or less. All tulle should be 108 inches wide.

3. Step 3

   Lay out the tulle on a large table or the floor. Fold it in half and place paperweights or other heavy objects to hold it down flat. Coffee mugs are a good choice if you do not have paperweights. Cut the edge (not the folded edge) of the veil into a curved shape. You can use a pattern to do this or just slightly round the edges.

4. Step 4

   Unfold the tulle and sew a running stitch along the straight edge. About 3 inches inside of the edge, using a needle and heavy white thread, sew all the way across the veil. After sewing, hold the thread at one end and push the tulle together to gather it.

5. Step 5

   Attach the tulle to a comb. Purchase a 4-inch bridal comb. If you are getting married in a cool environment, you can use a fabric glue gun to attach the tulle directly to the comb. Do not use glue if your wedding is in a hot or humid part of the country since the glue may melt. Instead of glue, you can attach the tulle to the comb by stitching. Simply stitch the tulle to the comb by bringing the stitches through the material, then between the teeth of the comb. Make sure the tulle is attached completely. Your veil is now finished.

i was in terengganu for 4 days

Last week aku ikot Mr Kippei balik kuala terengganu..
Dari hari sabtu sampai hari selasa.. 4hari 3 mlm..
So aku dah kenal semua family dia...luqman,arel,amir dan andy..
Mak dan abah dia pon sporting abis..
i think, i've started to love them..
and i fell in love with Kuala Terengganu itself..

Hari pertama kami sampai dah kul 8mlm..bertolak dr umah aku dah 12tghr.

Hari kedua , jalan2 round town then belah petang g tgk baju sanding.Mak metua aku pilih songket kaler krim..sebab takde songket kaler hitam putih.
Belah malam lak g tengok abah nyanyi kat mana ntah,tak silap aku mcm kat dewan pej kerajaan.Boleh tahan gak abah ni, nyanyi lagi shidee. bukan main dia atas stage tu..hihihi.
Aku jadi penyokong plg bersemangat..sebab mak dengan encik kippei dah boring tgk abah masuk pertandingan nyanyi...ahahahaa..

Hari ketiga, kami pegi kelantan..
Mula2 g kota bahru tukar cincin encik kippei..pastu g beli barang souviner kahwin kat rantau panjang...balik kena bayar cukai rm50..huhu..cm hampeh..
Lewat mlm gak la kami sampai kat umah..tp bab shoping ni mmg mak dan abah mentua aku kamceng dengan aku..hahahaa..senang nk masuk..rasa cm sekepala jek..

then last day aku di terengganu, encik kippei bawak round town lagi skali..g pasar payang, taking pictures..having great time together..
kul 3 ptg kami gerak ke KL.
dalam perjalanan encik kippei lalu pantai kat marang... cantik giler..
dan aku berjaya rakam encik kippei berdengkur..ahahahaha..
haa..tu la,bila orng ckp taknak ngaku...hihihihi..
evidence dah ade dalam tangan ku...pasni leh blackmail encik kippei tu...wahahahahaa..

Dalam 4 hari tu aku learn byk benda...pasal encik kippei and his beloved family..looking at them and thinking about my family...
aku rasa aku leh faham a few thngs about bakal suami ku ini..
and membuatkan aku bertambah respect kat dia..
and juga membuatkan aku mula sayang pada mak,abah,luqman,arel,amir,andy...

thank you so much, korang...
for taking good care of me for that 4 days.
for treating me so nicely..
u all semua mmg baik hati...and some are cute and adorable..hihihi..
thank you...
cant wait to be there again...

i love u more , encik kippei...

Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin

* ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen

Wo de qing ye zhen
Wo de ai ye zhen
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin

(Repeat *)
Wo de qing bu yi
Wo de ai bu bian
Yue liang dai biao wo de xin

** qing qing de yi ge wen
Yi jin da dong wo de xin
Shen shen de yi duan qing
Jiao wo si nian dao ru jin

***********

The Moon Represent My Heart

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you…
My affection is real.
My love is real.
The moon represents my heart.

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you…
My affection does not waver,
My love will not change.
The moon represents my heart.

* Just one soft kiss
is enough to move my heart.
A period of time when our affection was deep,
Has made me miss you until now.

* You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you.

* ** Go think about it.
Go and have a look [at the moon],
The moon represents my heart.

-------------------------------------------
Aku tau, kippei suke lagu ni. Memang lemak merdu Siti Nurhaliza nyanyi lagu ni.
Kippei kata, bila dengar lagu ni..dia akan terbayang kami tengah dating kat bukit expo.
Sambil mkn then, dia baring atas peha yuzuyu...
Hihihihi...cam citer hindustan jek..kan?
But the fact is..kitorang mmg pernah buat scene tu...sirius...hihihi.

Kippei... I Love U..

Can't Smile Without You

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who would of believed that you where part of a dream
now it all seems light years away

and now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

and you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

****************************************

1st time jumpa lagu ni... I am thinking of Mizan..
Very sweet feeling...
I love him...